A girl with a laptop

 Hey everyone. I know that this probably won't make many of you as excited as me, but I got a new laptop! And to continue with the good news. I have a boyfriend. He's truly amazing. Anyway, I'm currently trying to figure out what to wear to my friend's party on the ninth. I'm a bit anxious about it since it'll be my boyfriend's first time meeting ALL my friends at once.

 I've spent much time wondering if I'm ever good enough. I spent my time from one toxic relationship to flings to other poisonous relationships. It got to the point where I thought that I didn't deserve love. I felt that I was unlovable. I didn't believe I was worth real love. But from all of those relationships, my friends have shown me real unconditional love. They were there when I couldn't get off the ground. They have watched me piece together my heart and even helped me fill in the cracks. They brought out the best in me. I wouldn't be here writing this without them.    

 I got fired from my job. My girlfriend and I broke up and she called me an attention seeker and expected us to be all friendly after. I started smoking cigs and weed a lot more. I just don't know what I am doing anymore. Everything has gone to shit. Nothing makes sense anymore. I don't know what I can do to get my life back on track. It seems like the world is against me. I can't do anything right anymore. But maybe I never knew how to do stuff right.